~I am currently in recovery from anorexia, low mood, and anxiety, I am beating self harm and I have a history of suicide attempts. For now that is all you need to know~
I have hit rock bottom. Well, to be more precise, over the past six months I have hit rock bottom again and again and again and again and-
But I am no longer in the crisis of my mental health. I am beginning to step back and I can finally see the light.
If you had told me that things were going to get better six months ago I would have rolled my eyes and gone back to selecting a method of self destruction just to pass the time. The truth is, when you are stuck in a web of mental illness and you are so far down the rabbit hole that you can’t see the sky, the only option is to keep swimming.
“Just keep swimming, trust me, it will be worth it”
For a time it may simply feel like you’re simply surviving, and that you are nowhere close to living again, but before long you’ll begin to get your life back. You’ll start to feel again, think again, love again, laugh again, live again. And you will realize that recovery means more than simply gaining weight or staying clean or keeping safe. You will have a whole army of reasons to be well again pushing you forward past the obstacles in your way of staying well.
My point is, even when it seems like there is no point to even listening to the support systems around you telling you that you must keep on going, keep going. Just keep swimming, trust me, it will be worth it.
~by Emma Cunningham~